Sunday, June 08, 2008

Not much to say

Thanks to everyone who sent comments over the weekend. Baby measured right at 9 weeks, but after 2 ultrasounds it was determined that it didn't have a heartbeat. My D&C is scheduled for Tuesday morning and I've decided to have genetic testing done just in case. I don't have words to describe how I'm feeling. I'm totally broken. I cannot believe this has happened to me again.

I'm taking an indefinite break. And I might take a break from reading/commenting as I just don't have the energy to handle things right now. I need to focus all of my energy on being the best parent I can to Ava. Reality is sinking is that she might just be the only child we ever have. I've had 2 pregnancies/2 losses in less than 7 months and I need to give my body and my mind time to heal, and even then I'm not sure I'll be ready to do it again.

Thanks to everyone who's been praying for us during all of this.

26 comments:

Jen said...

I wish I knew what to say right now. My heart is absolutely breaking for you. I am so sorry.

Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...

Lisanne said...

I just can't believe it, Becca. You take ALL the time you need. We'll be here, cheering you on and holding good thoughts/sending prayers. I am SO very sorry. :( Know that I'm always here when you need to talk.

Deanna said...

You poor girl!!

Take a break, give yourself time to heal.

Love what you have today & hope for a better tomorrow.

Connie said...

Oh no, Becca~I'm so, so sorry. I just don't know what else to say other than I'm keeping you all in my prayers. Take all the time you need~only you can be the judge of how long it takes you to heal.

(((big hugs)))

Chas said...

Becca, I had no idea. I am so extremely sorry for your loss. If I can do anything please let me know!

Whitney said...

Rebecca, I'm so, so, very sorry. Call me if you need anything. Really.

yummysushipajamas said...

Oh I wish there was something I could say to help. Take whatever break you need to, and we will all be here when you're ready to come back to blogging.

I will be thinking of you and your family during another sad time for you all. I am so very sorry.

Jesser said...

I'm so completely ticked off on the unfairness of it all. I am so so so sorry for this loss. There are no words. I'll be thinking of you.

anglophilefootballfanatic.com said...

Oh, honey. I'm totally without words. But, please know that I will continue to pray for you. You take all the time you need to heal, regroup, and cope.

Catwoman said...

Oh, I'm so, so very sorry. I can't even imagine how much your heart breaks again.

Kirsten said...

I hated to read that. I am so sorry. Sending hugs. Please take care. We'll miss you but totally understand...do what you need to do.

Sara said...

Oh Becca...I am at a loss of words. My heart and tears go out to you. We are here when you are ready.

Jaimie said...

Oh Becca, I am so very sorry. I am so sorry this is happening to you. I'll miss you, but I'll be here when you are back. My heart aches for you.

Wendy said...

I am so sorry for your loss and seriously SAD for how unfair this all is.

Bug's mama said...

Oh Becca, i'm just breaking for you right now. I am so sorry that this has happened to you again. You guys are all in my prayers, I hope you are able to heal.

Nellie said...

Becca- I am so, so sorry. Please take it easy and take care of yourself. Or better yet, let the hubby take care of you for a while.

I'll be praying that in time your heart will heal. Again, I am so sorry. My heart is sad for you.

Bless you and your family.

Anth said...

I'm so sorry. You do whatever you need to so you can mourn and heal. We'll all miss you, and I'll be praying for you.

Christy said...

I am so sorry. You're in my thoughts.

Midwest Texan said...

Becca - I'm so sorry to hear this. I am praying for you and thinking about your family.

emmakirstensjournal said...

Becca-I'm so sorry for your loss.

tyfamilyadventures said...

i hate that nothing i can say will make it better...just know you are in my thoughts and prayers.take care of yourself and know that i am so sorry that you have to go through this...

Eriness said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers

Jessica said...

I literally just gasped out loud. Becca my heart just broke for you right now...
Please take care of yourself, and Ava...

Holly said...

Oh hon, that is heartbreaking. You are definitely in my prayers.

TEACHBROECK said...

oh my...I am so sorry...I know that means nothing right now...I will pray for you ....

Satan said...

... there are no words. Sorry for your loss.

xoxo