You will notice a new ticker on my page.
We've gotten there. We are finally at the point where we think we're ready to give this baby making thing another try. Of course we're been talking about it since "it" happened, but to really sit down and say, okay now is the time has been hard to do. We want another chance to prove that we can do it, and no matter what the outcome is, it IS worth any hardship/problem/devastation that may come from it.
My husband has really been on the fence, how can he not be. We went through a very traumatic event. My body was literally put through the ringer. I'm not going to say that we aren't scared, because we are but I keep trying to convince him and myself that what happened was a fluke. An accident, and it can't/won't happen again. We don't know that for sure, but we can only assume that since I've had one normal pregnancy, another one should not be unattainable. The hardest part about putting the ticker up there, is that my due date is/was March 22. I have a friend who gave birth to two healthy twins today (7 lbs a piece) and she was due two weeks after me so I know that those babies would be here by now. But they aren't, and every day since Nov. 15 I've gotten out of bed, realized how lucky I am to have what I have, and I've told myself that if I was supposed to have more children, than I will.
I'm sure should it happen again, the emotional aspects will be high. I'm sure to be on the emotional roller coaster from hell, but it will be worth it. My body is not where I want it to be, I've been working on losing weight since the beginning of the year, and it's proven to be a challenge in itself. This may be a short journey, it may be a long journey, and I'm sure it's going to be one hell of a scary ride.