Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Bow chicka bow wow..

You will notice a new ticker on my page.

We've gotten there. We are finally at the point where we think we're ready to give this baby making thing another try. Of course we're been talking about it since "it" happened, but to really sit down and say, okay now is the time has been hard to do. We want another chance to prove that we can do it, and no matter what the outcome is, it IS worth any hardship/problem/devastation that may come from it.


My husband has really been on the fence, how can he not be. We went through a very traumatic event. My body was literally put through the ringer. I'm not going to say that we aren't scared, because we are but I keep trying to convince him and myself that what happened was a fluke. An accident, and it can't/won't happen again. We don't know that for sure, but we can only assume that since I've had one normal pregnancy, another one should not be unattainable. The hardest part about putting the ticker up there, is that my due date is/was March 22. I have a friend who gave birth to two healthy twins today (7 lbs a piece) and she was due two weeks after me so I know that those babies would be here by now. But they aren't, and every day since Nov. 15 I've gotten out of bed, realized how lucky I am to have what I have, and I've told myself that if I was supposed to have more children, than I will.

I'm sure should it happen again, the emotional aspects will be high. I'm sure to be on the emotional roller coaster from hell, but it will be worth it. My body is not where I want it to be, I've been working on losing weight since the beginning of the year, and it's proven to be a challenge in itself. This may be a short journey, it may be a long journey, and I'm sure it's going to be one hell of a scary ride.

12 comments:

Jen said...

I wish that I could give you a big ol' hug. Seriously. This is huge, and I am SOO glad to see that you are giving it another go!!

I want another one so very badly, sadly, it is just not in the cards. I am having major issue in dealing with that. UGH.

Best of luck to you both! I am so excited for you guys, so very happy!!

weee!

anglophilefootballfanatic said...

I'm very proud of you. And, I still find you so inspiring. I wish you guys the best of luck in trying again.

Chas said...

I'm glad you've gotten to a place where you feel ready to give it another go. I'm sure you realize it'll probably happen quickly since it has the first two times, so I'm sure you've really gotten to the point where you're ready. God bless! I'll be thinking of you!!

Jesser said...

I'm sure it must have been really hard getting "there." I wish you all the best.

Laura McIntyre said...

Making the descion to TTC is a big one, and this if for those who have not had the loss you did.
I still cannot imagine what you went through and still go through but wish you all the luck with this new possible journey

emmakirstensjournal said...

I'm sure that for you and hubby it was a hard choice, I know with us it was hard since hubby wanted to get fixed after the loss of our twins.

I pray all goes well this time for you *and i'm sure it will* Take care.

Deanna said...

You have a very common sense frame of mind. You will be blessed.

Connie said...

I'm so glad that you & Matthew have reached this point. We were blessed w/Kendall after we lost our Angel Spencer so I know that you guys will be blessed. God knows our wants & will provide :) Good luck & keep us posted along the journed :) (((hugs)))

Connie said...

*journey

Lisanne said...

Good luck. Wishing you ALL the best. I hope that everything goes just FINE. So happy and excited for you! Lucas's third birthday was yesterday ~ March 22nd. Amazing that you had the same due date as his birthday! (My due date with him was March 21st.) I hope that you'll receive happy, positive news soon. Pulling for you ... sending prayers up!

Midwest Texan said...

what an exciting - and probably scary - decision, but I am so happy for you that you are at this place.

and I just noticed on your other ticker that Ava is almost 2! Happy Early Birthday to her - any big plans for celebrating?

TEACHBROECK said...

YHEAAAAAA I'M VERY HAPPY FOR YOU....you will bein my thoughts every day!!!! I am not sure what the ticker stands....sorry...Ovulation?